i had another breakout todae...tis tym i guess it was teh worst...tey all sae my eyes ver y swollen...metal rulers-useful or juz not useful...xinzi used it to slash me...i noe i've hidden the facts...i told everyone xinzi slashed me but dats only once...i slashed myself twice on the other hand...relax...xinzi slash she whole hand...she juz scared laa....her english -she has high expectations...yea....y did i cry? mann tis question....tell u sumitn...i wrked the hardest for is exams lo...n the worst mark i gt...ive tried my best le...reallie...dunno how wen report bk come....i veh scared disappoint my parents...mayb its juz fate for my wrist to be slit...i click the button the vd eject out scratch my wrist...othough not serious de laa...but its lyk tellin me slit it gurl....haix...i reallie shen bu ru si now lo...pls...help me.......a tear juz dropped...i reallie fel lyk gtiin a car n breathe in all the carbo monoxide until i die...juz slp ya noe....i asked my mum wad will she do if i commit suicide...she saes she will follow to...i dun wan to gt anione down wif me...esp the bad wae u noe..n yea...i realised i had true frens hu stood by me n encourage me....i noe u all tried ur besty le...but sry i juz carn cheeer up....results so bad...how can i juz smile...i relalie wanna go to the beach n scream n shout n juz cry....i'll feel better ...i noe it...but i juz scared i may juz end my life dere...dunno wad to do...i juz reallie hope i was sumting in sumone's life b4... den my life wun go to waste...juz remember me in ur hearts can le....rite now...i seriously hope their will b sumone comin up to me n tell me...faus...dun die k....d0 u actually noe tat u mean it to me...juz dun let urself die k.... i guesss i reallie nid-ed sumtin liddat...sumting...someone to show dat tey care....thru actions or wrds..... i can actaullly feel if u mean it or not...i noe some of u tell me not to die le...lyk their are frens arnd u dat sort of ting...i noe it but i juz nided more...im so sorry....i noe im demanding too much frm everybody n myself.....i admit im selfish...sry....oh ya i cut my hair...
