fun feel lyk including everyting here. tings chnged.so in the end? feelings do fade dun dey? finally i m convinced feelings reallie do fade. deres no such ting as everlastin was dere? it used to feel so good wif u showerin all the attention on me. n den u turned cold. maybe it was an illusion n a misunderstandin cos rarely ppl treat me so well n gimme all the attention i wan. dat made me feel dat u acty lyk me o rsumting. it must be a misunderstandin i guess.every single ting u msg-ed me n stuffs felt so sweet.i used to smile at dem. now i dunno y im feeling lyk this. u stop showerin me attention. u stop makin the first move, lyk erm start to msg me first or lyk intiate a convo n stuffs. n now wen i make the first move it wun last more den 10 msgs. its pretty obvious isnt it. u try to end the convo fast, clean n sweet. obviously found sumone oready. self control- i was unable to do dat. i couldnt stop myself. i noe ery clearly myself dat fer me, to stop tinkin abt sumone is to fall fer another. i dun wanna carry on tinkin abt u wen im free or tinkin wad u r doing n stuffs. if u r treatin me lyk a fren i will do the same. wad u used to do laz tym u still do it, just to diff ppl rite. it doesnt pay to invest too much feelings. im gonna learn smart n ignore everytin arnd me animore. i find myself irritating. even to myself. maybe now im gonna delte all the sms-es frm my saved items. cos tey serve me no purpose n dig up unnecessary memories. everyting has a wonderful period of tym. i dun wanna drag the period on n cause it to turn unpleasant. mayeb im reallie irritatin u n u dun wan me to noe or dunno how to stop me. a wonderful statement used to start off the story should end wif a flawless statement n a beautiful full stop. some tings i will nvr say; secrets kept behind the story. FATED; sumday just sumday my guardian angel will appear n take me away to a place wif no sorrows n he will gimme the sense of security i nid. I MUST BE OPTIMISTIC. =)
