haiis. its just always like tis. 2006 appears rather okayy on the outside but for the first 2 mths, i realised tings go missing. or maybe not dere animore lyk 2005 had. i lyked the feeling in 2005. although not always gd but the feeling feels good. i like the feeling. but the feeling is not here animore. its lyk big chnge. lyk 2006is different. i just wan sumtings o happen. but dey dun. gd or bad. i just wan sumting to happen, obviously not tat bad laa. but sumting to happen so tat my ife wun feel so empty. maybe sumone i can irritate alll day long. sumone i can flood their inbox. sumone fun. sumting nice to happen. sumting sweet to happen. sumting negative yet positive to happen. just sumting to make my life seem more interesting. all these can be found last yr. it was a reallie fruitful year for me. but now maybe its retribution. for the way i treat certain ppl maybe because i tot it was teh best to treat them dat way. best to treat them tat way. for both me n them. ya. so here's retribution. smirkin at me. well wadever. it'll turn better rite. reassure me. pls.
