okay. i gotta admit. perhaps i was lying. i mean maybe not. but maybe i was hiding sumting. i have absolutely no idea. i nvr told anione abt tis. cos i seriously hope it aint true. cos i dun wan it to be true. i dun even noe if it is true. and plus, im currently considering the possibility of it being true. but at the very first place, why consider the possibility wen nth is gonna come out of it.
ive been telling myself to do soive been hypnotising myself to feel soim driving myself to feel soim forcing myself to be soor maybe its really trueand i hope it isdat im feeling socoz i noe nth is gonna come out of itso its pointless.
