am i not determined enoughhave i not been through enoughits not easyreallyto have made the decisioncos it was too painfor mewhy issit that jol noe me so well. lol. sounds kinda stupid but she noes wad im thinking. she noes wad i feel. she noes im running away frm it. she noes. she is the only one who noes how deep i m in the effing well, ok ( jol said hole). its terrible. still, i dunno why, i still dun say the complete truth. i dunno why. i carn. i just carn. as much as i wanna sa it, i carn. jol tells me to do sumting. like wth, m i supposed to do sumting? no i dun wan to. haiis confusing.
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tdy my hse gt carnival. wheets. i called my cousin over. we are gonna have fun! yays. YAY. haiis. i tink maybe im nt gonna watch those movies i wanan watch afterall. no money. T__T
