i noe tis sounds stupid but hey its true.
i took a nap just now. but b4 tat, i asked my sis if i had tuition n she said no. so i went to take a nap. i was dammit tired laa. i nidded it so much. i went to take a nap for a while. den sumone woke me up. mom says gt tuition n teach was dere. i was totally shagged laa. den i ignore her but she kip calling me up. den i wake up go kitchen take a drink and i just cried. couldnt help it im seriously tired laa. and i carn even hav a lil sleep. everyting is so wrong den. i just wanted sum slp. den was like bendin my head down cos i was crying. den my mom tell me dun angry. i tell her tml i got skl laa. like wth i tired can. tml still nid go skl. like wen can i hav my proper sleep. i have not slpt for more den 8 hrs for tis whole wk. i noe i sound like sum kuku ass. cos u ppl out dere may hav lesser slp den me. did i ever mention dat im anaemic? ok wadever laa. i carn take it. am weak and wadever. my mood is like totally ruined. my whole wk is toasted. my whole wk is screwed. to think i tot tdy wld be better. like who it tat idiot who made the phrase
tml will be better. like come on. wich tml. ok cont. so i was like totally shagged. den i go my mom bed dere. i go complain to my sis n question her. I TOT I NO TUITION. i was totally pissed n i dunno how to describe. den imy teach n mommy were chatting laa, as always. den i go my mom bed dere lie down n i kip crying but fell aslp in the end and drooled. heh. while i was cryin wif my eyes shut, i told myself to faster dry my tears b4 i start tuition but i couldnt. it just kept flowing. dat moment, i found out how weak i was. i broke down earlier den i expected. i shut my eyes. tried to slp. n immediately was thinking abt how everyting is so wrong now. its the second tym tis wk i cried so much. the second tym is the ultimate. im dead laa. its so wrong now. i noe im wrong complaining abt my life down here n dat alot of ppl are far worse den me. but carn i just say tat everything is wrong. i noe there r ppl worse out dere but i just wanna pen it all down. how i feel and stuffs. so. its the second tym i cried tis wk. and the second tym my tears flowed tdy. wen i was crying i realli wished u were dere. just one wrd of concern. i dunno laa. its so wrong. everyting is so screwed up. i have to put tis all out now. den tml go to skl and put of an
effing facade and smile at everyone i see. ohmytian wad on earth is wrong laa.and you see arh. i haven ben having proper meals lately. ive been skipping meals or maybe take my meal late n end up missing dinner cos lunch shifted to dinner tym. i dun even hav the mood to eat. or maybe im nt hungry yet. maybe tats psychological but i dun care. its affecting my routine. its affecting my health. im gonna get some major illness soon. i can feel it. and apparently i can hear ur luffter. hey its nt funny. all tis tings coming at the wrong tym. all tis suay stuff. i get irritated so easily now. frustrated so easily.
i dun wanna sink into great depression yet. its nt the tym for me to sink yet.
uniquely( da ge ) jolene - myriad of blurs says:
U WASTING URE HEART ON AN IDIOT.][ HOLY COW ][ ; *٭* says:
DUN TELL MEuniquely( da ge ) jolene - myriad of blurs says:
ure so wasting ure heart on him
wad an ass
][ HOLY COW ][ ; *٭* says:
u dun have to tell mejolene indirectly told me tat im a fool. but did i have a choice? and it effing hurts me for i fell for a ******* ch*******.
den my family. my dad has 7 to support including himself. he;s stressed out too. im stressed out too. we have no money. T_T
den i have no tym to slp. u noe my slp is
nvr enuff for me. cos im anaemic. even wen i wake up frm a long nap or wadsoever, i will still feel tired. really. im always tired. i carn help it. i nid my slp. if im disturbed frm a slp or carn slp. ill cry. i noe i seriously sound like a crybaby now but wadver. haiis. im so screwed now.
and you were never dere to save me. NEVER.what would you do if you saw me cry. nothing?
