im tired. i really am very tired. physically and mentally. well, gd news first, kinda unexpected but ed gt first for cheering. whee. pardon me if my whee doesnt sound right, cos im not in the mood.
tdy aft sports day, i had cca. zz. den while waitin for tem to start, i was down dere thinking and den i pressed a few buttons on my fone and clicked
play and den i could hear it. and den i teared silently. its difficult. for me. i was determined and i am determined. but just not enuff. i used to use my brain to think cos i didnt wanna get hurt. but now, my heart tells me i regret. my heart is reprimanding me for not listening to it den. my heart is killing me. my heart makes me feel like a fool. my heart tells me to tell. but my brain tells me i will regret. my heart tells me i cannot forget him, my brain tells me to be positive. my heart tells me i really like him, my brain tells me he isnt worth it. my heart tells me to give it a try, my brain tells me to let go.
as much as my heart tells me ill regret not telling, my brain seems to get control of it.
i dun get it either.
its like. you noe what you mean to me?
you make me like you. but u make me hate u too.
its just, i dunno how to describe.
cos wad u r doing is hurting me so.
im really really very tired. i really am. damn tired.
one day, if i break down, its expected.i dunno why but i want you to see me cry. i want you to see me cry because of you. only then, you will understand.
