i finally got back my com for a sec but i nid to go heymath ltr. anw. mom's bad. she didnt want to let me go camp at first but i persuaded her and she said " first night only" T_T she says she feels tt i dun like to slp at hme. like omg. why is she like tt. T_T den tdy i go hme she say she tinks i bian4 huai4. she says i reach hme late. well, i reached hme at like 5 plus and its not like i was outside playing, i was in skl laa. zzz.
i think im going mad already. tdy, for the very first time, i heard a voice in my head. it really seemed real. its this really creepy and deep voice. omg, im going mad.
oh ya, i wrote new lyrics and ive passed them to benedict. lol.
like a bee,she stings in order to protect herselfprevent herself frm getting hurtbut she gets hurt in the end too.benlaikeyigeizijiyigexingfudejihuidanshitafangqileyingweitabuzaixiangxinyeyijingmeiyouganjueleno. it wasnt for you that she changed her winter to spring.
but it was you who changed her winter to spring.
but im not happy.
ive become so restless.
when was the last time i really felt happy,
i dont remember anymore,
its been long.
ive been losing my appetite lately.
i haven gotten any cravings lately.
ive been sleeping lately.
my mom doesnt trust me.
she hasnt been trusting me for a very long time,
even if i didnt do anything wrong.
shes my mother,
she doesnt trust me.
i lead a pathetic life.
now, i have to go home early everyday coz my mom wont be happy if i dont. she will start suspecting if i dont. i know she is concerned but how would you feel if your mom doesnt trust you and it is written on her face. and she tells u straight in your face she thinks you've been engagin in unhealthy activities outside, thinks tt you dont like sleeping at hme, thinks that your personality is the worst and most insulting of all. sometyms i really hate my mom. im 15 and i know what im doing. it feels like im living with all your rules. and i am. but you dont think so.
sometimes i really dont understand wht she's thinking.
sometimes i really wanna run away forever.
byebye
ill pay the person who steals my identity and live my life while i leave.
if youre smart enough, youll understand what im saying.
