y not lyk tis... if u reallie rallie dun lyk me, find me irritating or wadsoever...juz tell me... n reject me juz like tat or i'll fall deeper... he said "bt try control ur heart ba.. dun wan lata hurt too much" is tat a hint or someting ur fren told me... i hope u can juz tell me rite away bahs...feel free to giv me ur coments..i dun mind - both gd n bad...i bet ya told him alot of tings bah... i dunno...sounds lyk u reallie told him alot bahs... i dunno anyting...i dun wanna noe either...but i gotta accept the reality...if u r tinkin of rejecting me n m afraid i'll attempt suicide...trust me...i wun...i wun jump fer u......i'll kip everyting in my heart...juz b direct , wun ya? the false hopes r high...i dun wanna fall frm above...so hard down...pls...juz pls tell me directly...whether u lyk me or hate me or wanna reject me or wadsoever..ok? i dunno if ure gonan ever read tis entry...but i hope u noe...yea...im lowerin my hopes now...tryin very very hard.... i reallie reallie dunno wad to do now...if u tell me honestly..i can take it...ill juz get on wif everyting lyk someting happened but i resumne my norm life...u found it scary tat im pesismistic n suicidal... i admit im pesismistic but i'll nvr find the courage to suicde...i noe tat myself...i want to but i canr...i ahb too many tings on my mind n i dun dare to...deres juz too much to consider...yea....so if tats the reason u dun thrash it all out wif me by tellin me u dun lyk me... dats no longer a reason,tell me straight... i only harbouring hopes of 1 percent tat mayb u lyk me... is dat gd =) ...i guess dats bad =( juz tell me...
