=(... I LOVE MY MUM... but she doesnt tink so... the way she mistrusts me...suspects me...spot checks me breaks my hart...i knew frm the beggining frm the way she asks me tings... dat she doent trust me...but everyting just got worse...she wants me to b a lesbian...she restricts me frm guys... imean lyk gerrs shld hab male frens too rite...she just gets overly suspicious...i reallie dunno wad o do... laz laz nite....wen she reallie lost her trust in me n i was totally innocent n nvr ddone aniting wrong.....my hart broke into pieces...my dad trusts me...my mum doesnt...i reallie felt lyk dying....i imagined yself goinng up to my rooftop garden ...sittin on the side walls...swinging my legs...the tot of jumpin down didnt scared me... SERIOUS...it didnt...i nvr felt tis way b4...in the past i used to b afraid ...afraid of teh pain...everyting...but dat nite i seriously wasnt afraid...i even tot of going up derebut it was already in the nite...1 or 2 plus liao n i cldnt sleep...i was devastated...but in the end i still fell asleep...tot dat if i were to jump rite now...i wld b guilty...n i didnt wan to b tot of as pampered...coz now argmentative essay do on the pampered generation ish pampered blah blah laa....IM NOT PAMPERED at all... sumtyms i realllie feel dat life was meaningless...i gt rid of tis feeling already...i tot...but laz laz nite...i was helpless....dere was no one i cld turn to...mayb it was my fault to go out wif my gerr n guy frens?! i dun tink so...life nids a balance...now she still wan to call my fren de mum to ask her tings....mann... she reallie doesnt trusts me liao...i hate my life...i hate the world...everyting dat in me used to b love...but now...many turned to hate...HATRED... i didnt wan to pocess u in me...i hate to hate...but now...i carn help it...i was born to tis world to b hated n to hate...i dunno y but i tink tis way...my tears r flowing rite now...its because...I LOVE MY MUM... I DUN WAN TO HATE HER... I LOVE HER ALOT....although i dun show it...i dun go in front to tell her i lurve her...i always wanted to do so but i tot dat since she doent trust me...if i suddenly tell her...she wld suspect me....I KNOW IT TOO WELL DAT SHE DOENT TRUST ME... but i still trust her...trusts her dat she lurves me too...because I LOVE MY MUM...i reallie hope she will trust me...im already grown up....n she still tells me not to get guys help me buy drinks if tey do...dun drink it...WE R ALL SEC 2s only...her imagination too good...does she tink tey'll spike the drinks...ARGH...i hate tis...I HATE MY LIFE...
