i tink im so stupid and dumb la can. i duno why but im crying now. just now wen i was in mom's car on our way hme. i was looking at a sms wich well didnt say aniting sad and den i just looked out at the window and two rows of tears flowed down my cheeks. i cannot take it anymore and i dunno wads wrong wif me. and den mom went to buy sum stuff and i was in the car laa. den i cried even more. lucky my mom didnt notice laa. or not she will ask me and i dunno how to answer. and rite now. im crying again. i tink im gonna go mad liao. i realli dunno wads wrong wif me laa. i feel like dying now. i dun wanna feel tis way. its just way too much for me. im supposed to be optimistic. and ever since, i found my optimistic self. but, i just lost it not long ago. with every rain on its way, i lose my optimisim bit by bit.
huo xu ni yi jing fang qi wo le. dan wo zhi shi xiang shuo, wo chong lai mei xiang guo, ni de cun zai hui zai wo de sheng ming zhong ban zhe ju zu qing zhong de jiao se. ni de li qu shi wo gan dao fei chang bu xi guan. wo fa jue mei you le ni, wo de shi jie yi jing bu yi yang le.
